We think of things to say, because we want to say them. They are exploding in our heads. Holding one’s tongue can be one of the hardest possible tasks. We feel compelled to let our thoughts loose and let others see into our minds. The process in which a thought becomes a spoken phrase or sentence is often critical and urgent. We, humans, cannot resist being heard.

But, sometimes…

I fear that I let insecurities block me from saying the things I feel, believe, and so strongly want to let seep from my lips. My relationships are lacking an element of connectedness, because I don’t relinquish my thoughts to my conversations. I can think of a few friendships I have, where I always just go with it and speak. In those moments, I find myself the happiest. I let go and I don’t care what my laugh sounds like. Those jokes keep rolling and those heart-to-heart conversations grow deeper and deeper. 

Am I only supposed to have two or three relationships where I experience bliss?

Or

Am I too guarded?

Or

Am I only able to have two or three relationships where I experience bliss?

The thoughts I ache to spread as wide and as far as a field of wildflowers say, SPEAK. 

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